无题....

今天是我们Business Law的最后一堂课。。讲师给了我们一些练习，好让我们对考试有准备。练习是从以往的试卷取出来的，有些难，一些较简单。。真的，做完她给的习题，有一种去买 “风水地” 的感觉。很绝望。。难怪她从第一堂课开始就对我们那么严格。。

到后来的后来，课完了。在我们带着破碎的心离开讲堂前，她说了一些，我想也想不到她会说的话。。有点感动，其实。。她说不会做没关系，千万不要想着要作弊。因为作弊被捉到的下场就是会被提出学校。。她说不要为了这么一张比较难考的试卷，去做那么不值得的事（因为我们是第一次学法律，所以会比较辛苦）。。不及格，大不了就重考，千万千万不能作弊。被提出学校就浪费了你接近两年来的一切努力。。很苦口婆心的感觉。。原来她不是那么看不起重考生，虽然她每次都在班上（带有讽刺地）骂他们。。原来，当她说会失去两年的一切时，我才发现，虽然这科系不是自己喜欢的，可也放了好多心思在里头，至少是在每次考试和课业上。当时，第一个念头就是，那我的家人怎么办？。。好怕会让他们失望。。所以会一直那么努力。。原来，我开始不是为自己而活了。。原来，我没有方向了，除了考好成绩，除了以后要找有前途的工作，除了不要让他们担心。。

有点渺茫的感觉，对我的未来。。好久没试过了，对自己那么没有信心。。今天才发觉的。。当我终于答对讲师的问题时，我一点开心，自豪的感觉都没有。。反而有点失望。。不知道为什么。。我承认，平时的我是有点骄傲的，好像在答对问题时候，会有一种 “原来那么少人可以答对” 的想法。。可是今天，明天，以后的以后，我不知道了。。

昨天做工那边发生了些事，就赶回去了。。怎知，原来与我无关。。唉。。他们有跟我道歉。。可是，有一些内疚。。因为是要同学载我回的，而且平时跟他话不多。。今早还要载我回来宿舍。。在此，谢谢他。。

原来，人始终是人。。

rainy day..

now is 0314, 24th Aug..today is his birthday..my ex..dont know why,think a lot about the past moments we had it together..dont know why..they just came into my mind suddenly..i thought i had already forgotten..at least not to remember..but still..haiz..i dont know and i dont wanna know..just that,turn my mind to other things..maybe this could help..yea,it works..haha..anyway,happy birthday to him..

whole day raining today..rains always could make people down..and lazy somehow..skipped a tutorial class today..coz dont feel like going..dont wanna face the bore tutor..haha..went to library,photostated some past year questions..but dont know whether can finish it before the final..haiz..13 days more to my final,yet still dont have the mood to study..haiz..back from library,watched 'Bleach'..a quite nice animation..haha..coz dont feel like studying..laziness..haiz..had a nap after that..suppose is a short nap,but..i overslept..5 hours sleep..until hui chen called me ask whether wanna buy dinner for me..haha..laziness..haiz...

was thinking to cook noodle today..dont feel like eating much..then Qi Qi asked whether to go out n eat..i agreed..a tong shui shop..no vegetarian..i suppose..haha..watever la..juz ignore all the onions and meats..still can eat..haha..had a bowl of tong shui as well..total rm2.80..quite cheap..very full...haiz..

study at hui chen's room after that..cum chatting..hha..it alwys happen..coz chui hui wanna use my pc..so lo..have to shift myself to other place..haha..forgotten that i asked jason to canteen to study..until i saw the misscalls..omg..haiz..then quickly rush down to meet him..there's a new indian stall..juz operate their biz..biz quite good..jason ordered mee goreng,after a burger..i couldnt eat..coz duno wat ingrediants they put..have to be strict of myself..haha..watever..i'm not hungry as well..*self-comforting*..haha..

bcoz of the weather ba..feel so cold..plus,group of indian guys and girls smoking there..cant stand the smell..then come up..leave him alone again..haha..done some revision..all the sections i memorised last time..all forgotten..haiz..a fren of mine,dont know why..wasnt in a good mood yesterday..we asked,she doesnt say much..then she went to her fren's room..sms also reply in a short way..dont know what happened..a bit worry bout her actually..haiz..maybe she gives herself too much stress ba..haiz..

a very nice weather to sleep now..yet havnt feel the sleepiness..haha..going to study again later..haha..wanna change my lifestyle in 2 weeks time..to a bat's lifestyle..i hvae to..haiz..btw..till now still not really comfortable with my roomate..in a minor way..no offence when typing this..juz that..dont feel cmfortable when there's another person around u when u r studying..haiz..but what to do..i have to get used to it..i'm not a disipline person..that wake up and sleep at a certain time..somehow..i scared will make her bu shuang..haiz..watever la..have to face the problem..

all the best to whoever is having exam like me..dont stress up urself ya..haha..relax makes a clearer mind..and..hapi birthday to today's birthstars..happy alwys.. =D

itsuki_cwt

Tag from Edwina...

Instructions : Paste the following on your blog and tag people to answer the questions below. Have them tag other people. Your tagged friends will answer the questions about you.

1. What is your friend's name?
edwina..siew mei..my darling..hehe.

2.Jock, Geek, Prom Queen/King, Loner, Friendly, Flirtatious, Promiscuous, Pick a word from the list that best described your friend.
Jock

3. Choose 5 adjectives to describe your friend.
Friendly, Lovely, Conscious, Sporting,

4.What colour do you think best associates with your friend?
Green..as sporting as green..i feel it la..ha..

5.In ten years time, where do you see your friend?
I think i might have stayed in her hotel during a biz occassion..haha..

6. Describe your friend's blogging style.
Great!!..can 'see' her feeling on her post..

7. And I tag...
Destiny..keke..

busy..

It has been quite some time i never update my blog edy..haha..so busy recently..+ my laziness..that's the result..haha... erm..just finish watever courseworks i have last week..pity some of my frens..still having presentation n test..cham..erm..now's week 13, 2 more weeks to final exam...haiz..havnt get to start anything..dun have the mood yet..haiz...have to strat by this week edy..jia you lo..hehe..

ate a lot these few months..duno why..apetite bcome so good edy..haha..somehow..it's not a good news..fat like hell now..+fatty+..haiz..my aiya lao dou told me that no matter how i fat is still thin..he doesnt understand..+sob+..haiz..have to start diet edy..spend lotz of money n body shape to fulfill my 'eatness'..haha..what a horrible thing...haiz..zzz n eat all the times..

adddicted to IQ games recently..haha..friend's receommedation..erm..quite fun actually..but also found some true facts through tat..ie. i have a pretty low IQ..haiz..disappointed..but nvm..at least i still have a clear mind..erm..haha..self-comforting..some till now still havnt get to get through of it..i mean the games..haiz..watever la..keep trying~..haha..read a news recently..about a little young girl..who has a IQ of 150 if i'm not mistaken..haha..damn smart cute gal..hehe..but i was wondering..will she has a normal life like us?..being such a super genius..er..God knows..haha..

Mlao Band..long time didnt contact them edy..duno how're they all doing..once graduate very hard to meet up edy..haiz..erm..still got 'Lobak'..haa..owayz sms me de..thx lotz..keke..but then so sry for not replying u..coz..sometimes te timing is really not ngam la..haha..k.i.t ya..haha..

erm..many ppl born in this month actually..going to bankrupt soon..haiz..now my purse still left rm10..haiz..muz appreciate..if not next 2 weeks..i'll die of hunger..haha..the important point is that..i have a poor financial planning..who can hlp me..+sob+..haiz..

my mum went outstation edy..last weekend juz left my dad,2 bros,my grandmum n me..yea..luckily grandmum is here..if not duno wat to eat oso..btw..something happened in the place i work..haiz..human beings..haiz..mum not here,have to drive by myself edy..bcome more careful than before..erm..mayb bcoz of that accident ba..n now i can calm myself dwn when feel like wanna speed up..haha..it's a good thing ba..haha..perhaps my cousins n bro wouldnt scared by me..haha..n ya..my dad owayz remind me not o drive too fast..haha..my lovely dad..owayz so caring in any way..erm..maybe the last car repairing cost him a lot ba..hehe..so sorry about that..

cannot remember of what i should write edy..haiz..mentally old..haha..then here comes to the end this post lo..haha..all the best to whoever i knew..n especially for my darling - muacks..miss ya much.. =D

wuiteng

Accident..

Today is obviously not my day...juz too many things happened on me..haiz..maybe i'm too tired to face all these..i think i am..first of all,i'm suppose to come out with a dance by this week,unfortunately..what we think of is not really suitable their need..then all of us change the steps of that dance..yea,it has actually become better..maybe it's bcoz we dissucssed and the result of that than only 2 ppl learning the whole dance from video is totally different..yea..finally we all satisfied..although the whole thing havnt emerged clearly..

second,bout my brothers..my elder brother..erm..better attitude this week..perhaps he will remains such sttitude ler..he talked,we chatted..and we had actually back to the previous relationship..as close as the past..while my younger brother..haiz..more worse..his result has drop and yet doesnt intend to put in more effort on his studies..accordin to my mum,he's always think of the online games..if my mum refused to open the protected PC for him..he'll like..'bu shuang' for the whole day..dont even want to eat anything..haiz..duno why..n my dad was wondering..why cant they think maturely..at least not to addict on online games..just control a little and put more offort on their studies and behave better to their mum..haiz..it's like..one of them has to actually repeat the level because of his poorness of english..yea..english course..sometime was thinking..are we expecting too high on them?..i am the person that will set a quite high target for myself..but am i setting the target for my beloved brothers as well?..haiz..

back to the topic today..i have involved in an accident..bang by other car..it's like..he's in front of me,then he stopped..meaning i should have stop as well la..and i do stopped behind him..then dont know why,he suddenly move back..meaning his car is going to bang on mine..blur me..dont know what to do..dont realised that i should move backward as well or at least hon him..haiz..dont know what's happening on me..then,my front part kena bang..ask him to compenssate,he said what follow him to simewherelse to disscuss with his boss..sth like that la..dont know why,i told myself not to follow..and i didnt follow..but after that i flashback..i should go to his 'boss' there(i think becoz he's juz a staff i think,cannot make his own decision)..mana tau..juz a clip of eye..he disappeared edy..dont know where he went..then i drove to the place he told me to go(roughly know where it is la..),dont have his car also..what the...he lied!!..and the most damn thing is,when the time of the accident,i forgot to take down his car plate number!!..what the..haiz..disappointed on myself..after he's gone then only i thought about it..haiz..

my dad and mum obviously was not happy with this case..and i was wondering whether i'm able to drive in the future or not..it's like..most of the time i drive sure have sth will happen..really scare edy..duno ler..haiz..hereby,wanna thx my elder brother for comforting me..hah..i'm not tough enough to face all these sudden situation..what to do?..haiz..perhaps i'll improve..

oh yea,today is kahseng and kahweng's birthday..and we had actually celebrated with them..oh yea,forgot to tell,they are twins..that's why celebrating on the same day..hah..snap photos and recorded quite a number of videos today..haha..a memorable day..once again,happy borthday..

one more thing..Mayday's new album..离开地球表面..very nice..woth listeng..

all the best!!

itsuki_cwt