miss / missed you?

2 days u didnt online..maybe u r busy for your exam and i'm understand that..but u know...i'm so scare that what i thought would happen..that u have found ur 'sword' and u've decided to putus our 'ou duan si lian', so that we could never able to influence each other anymore...maybe this's a very good chance, for u to do that..

actually i'm a bit regret after i send the msg..which i said that i dont mind u use that 'sword'..and as long as u'd decided to putus our 'ou duan si lian', i'll promise that never going to miss u, cares bout u,anything else...i'm oways like tat..do things without think carefully...juz depends on the 'spot feelings'..

maybe that time i'm really angry with u,feel nothing with ur cares,ur msg..but soon i feel that u r getting to leave me soon..maybe started from now,ur exam is finished,but still i cant c u online..whole day i've been waiting..juz hope to c u..know that u'd never blocked me as wat he'd done,know that u r still willing to chat with me..

u've said before..that if u really wanna to putus relationship wit a person,u'll keep the person as far as u can..blocked him/her at msn,frenster etc,never answer their call,read their msg,even if u meet them on the road u'll still pretend that u dont know them..n they'll be totally out of ur life..now i'm scared..i scare i'll be one of them..i do not dare to msg orcall u..coz i scare i'll get wat i thought..i scare i'll be out of ur life,even when i meet u i have to pretend that i dont know u..i scared that when i meet u with another girl,i have to pretend i've seen nothing,like wat i have to to edison..u know how hard to do that?how the feeling would be?think u'd never know..coz u r owayz the pampered one..except ur ex,u wouldnt be have chances to get hurt..but why muz u go n hurt ppl wor..dont u know that i'm worry bout u?dont u know that wat i said is juz some anger word?

we r the same type of ppl..that cares our 'face' so much..when we done sth wrong,we'd never really appologize,juz let time to 'clear' the mistake...n that now..i've got back what i'd done..now,i'm missing u,lotz...out of my expectation..my frenz oways remind me,never return to that path,he'd hurt u so much,he wasnt the worth person..haiz..what should i do?follow wat they'd told me?

now i'm following their ways..n wat i found us just i'm getting to hate u more than before,n miss u more than wat i think i was...i wanna go back to the past..with u..ppl say i'm pesimistic..i should look forward to future instead of looking back..

in other words,they r right..in studies,i'm looking forward..i try to ignore the mistake i've done in the last peper n looking forward to other papers..but when it comes to relationship,i couldnt do that...the more i step forward,the more i'll go backwards..i duno what i'm thinking,what i'm trying to be now..maybe as wat my fren said,now is juz a proses...after u'd gone through it..everything will be fine..

hope so..everything will be fine..even after i missed you..everything will be fine..